Talk it Out Tuesday

Attraction. Desire. Obsession.

These are the things that occupy my mind this Tuesday evening. What is it that makes us want? Certainly wanting does not require lacking, or so it would seem since it seems that, materially speaking, those who have, want more. Is this true or just an old bias? Jealousy, perhaps?

Every time I get a Hanna Andersson catalog in the mail, my breath catches. I struggle: should I just toss it? Inevitably I think I'll just peek. Then I see them, those adorable, brightly colored frocks, patent leather and cow hair clogs, Umi's, Ecco's, Cable knit legwarmers...all, just out of my reach. And of course being out of my reach necessarily means being out of her reach, which is the part that is hard to bear.

*sigh* I try to think that I certainly could afford one piece. Yet, I know for sure that having one piece that is SO special that you fear it...well, it takes the luster off, doesn't it?

I am reading a book about a woman who has everything and yet, the only thing she wants is the one thing she can't have. Obsession. What would you sacrifice? It sounds trite, but when you get down to it, aren't we all the same? I'm sure that one of the the many impoverished families in our country or another who are just struggling to eat would say the same about me. She has it all: food, shelter, a devoted husband and 4 healthy children. But we are trained to see through the lens of lack, are we not? I guess this is why the story is appealing...relate-able.

But the question remains: Why? Why this, why not that? And can we ever really be satisfied? Really?